God, Please Help Me...

MY HEART IS BROKEN.

I hate being an Addict.

... I love my friends and T.Sue, but no matter how much (LOVE) some give me....I end up relapsing! Usually when things aren't bad at all. All I can say is I NEED HELP...from " GOD"!

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This Notation (Edited) Added 04-19-007

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My friends love me and I LOVE them..BUT...'......"ACTIVE"' addiction will destroy any chance of being HAPPY! It has me .....and those closest to me.
"It's " VERY FUCKED" When you SEE yourself SOMEHOW----finally---as an Addict; it ain't "CUTE"

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!Like I said to a Friend..."Wish me luck? (and put ME in yer Prayers? I NEED IT!
I'm so SAD and TERRIFIED!

Gunna try something "Different".


04-19-07

The Sun....

You are The Sun

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

"ShortBus", the Movie

Highly recommended! You'll laugh til you come!

ABOUT THE FILM
John Cameron Mitchell’s SHORTBUS explores the lives of several emotionally challenged characters as they navigate the comic and tragic intersections between love and sex in and around a modern-day underground salon. A sex therapist who has never had an orgasm, a dominatrix who is unable to connect, a gay couple who are deciding whether to open up their relationship, and the people who weave in and out of their lives, all converge on a weekly gathering called Shortbus: a mad nexus of art, music, politics and polysexual carnality. Set in a post-9/11, Bush-exhausted New York City, SHORTBUS tells its story with sexual frankness, suggesting new ways to reconcile questions of the mind, pleasures of the flesh and imperatives of the heart.

"Put Down the Candy Bar, and Step Away from the Little Boy..."

Art......

Whadda Ya Think???

Blue Man.....

Like I said before, "A picture
is (easily) worth a 1000 words".
I can name this picture in ONE word: "WOW"!

Ryan Gosling is "The Beleiver!.

I HIGHLY recommend:

The Believer



Inspired by a true story, The Believer recounts the life of Danny Balint from fervent religious student to rising star in a Neo-Fascist political movement that subverts almost everything he was brought up to believe. In a fascinating series of twists and turns, Danny exhibits all the passion of the converted as he browses militia-movement Web sites, utters hate-filled but articulate discourses on Judaism and its teachings, and promotes the violent attack upon and ultimate destruction of his most hated enemies.
When his own suppressed identity seems likely to be revealed, he flees to a upstate training enclave, further galvanizing his desire to act out the vicious and heinous vilification subscribed to by him and his compatriots. But as events ensue and striking contradictions multiply, something in Danny's soul prompts a complex and incredible resolution. With a uniquely intelligent and perceptive vision, Bean steers us on a course which is both enlightening and enthralling, one which avoids easy psychological explanations and creates an unforgettable film experience.