The Sun....

You are The Sun

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

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"ShortBus", the Movie

Highly recommended! You'll laugh til you come!

ABOUT THE FILM
John Cameron Mitchell’s SHORTBUS explores the lives of several emotionally challenged characters as they navigate the comic and tragic intersections between love and sex in and around a modern-day underground salon. A sex therapist who has never had an orgasm, a dominatrix who is unable to connect, a gay couple who are deciding whether to open up their relationship, and the people who weave in and out of their lives, all converge on a weekly gathering called Shortbus: a mad nexus of art, music, politics and polysexual carnality. Set in a post-9/11, Bush-exhausted New York City, SHORTBUS tells its story with sexual frankness, suggesting new ways to reconcile questions of the mind, pleasures of the flesh and imperatives of the heart.

"Put Down the Candy Bar, and Step Away from the Little Boy..."

Art......

Whadda Ya Think???

Blue Man.....

Like I said before, "A picture
is (easily) worth a 1000 words".
I can name this picture in ONE word: "WOW"!

Ryan Gosling is "The Beleiver!.

I HIGHLY recommend:

The Believer



Inspired by a true story, The Believer recounts the life of Danny Balint from fervent religious student to rising star in a Neo-Fascist political movement that subverts almost everything he was brought up to believe. In a fascinating series of twists and turns, Danny exhibits all the passion of the converted as he browses militia-movement Web sites, utters hate-filled but articulate discourses on Judaism and its teachings, and promotes the violent attack upon and ultimate destruction of his most hated enemies.
When his own suppressed identity seems likely to be revealed, he flees to a upstate training enclave, further galvanizing his desire to act out the vicious and heinous vilification subscribed to by him and his compatriots. But as events ensue and striking contradictions multiply, something in Danny's soul prompts a complex and incredible resolution. With a uniquely intelligent and perceptive vision, Bean steers us on a course which is both enlightening and enthralling, one which avoids easy psychological explanations and creates an unforgettable film experience.

Jason Statham, Actor:The "Driver" in TRANSPORTER 2

They say, "A picture is worth 1000 Words". I think this pic sez everthing it needs to say in one word: "SEXY"!

What "Casino Royale" Shudda Been........

I was completely disappointed in Casino Royale! Thought it was so terrible I turned it off 1/2 of the way into it, which is something I rarely do. And where did they find THAT James Bond? Awful and Unbelieveable. If you wanna treat yerself to EVERYTHING that Casino shudda been, rent TRANSPORTER 2; this is one of the FEW times a Sequel is rockin. One last thing: FASTEN YER SEATBELT!

IF you love movies that have BAD-ASS Woman in them (kinda Le Femme Nikita -types) yer gunna LOVE this Chick!

She is why I am Gay! LOL

Movie Trailer: http://transporter2movie.com/#

My Latest Obsession ......

No! My LATEST Obsession is NOT a man, (altho I did meet someone recently who I LIKE very much -- and hope he feels the same way ) it's the Group: She Wants Revenge/ Here is another link to their song" "These Things". Maybe it's JUST me, but i think they fukin' ROCK! Listen ... and see what you think......http://youtube.com/watch?v=B4IT0GDeplA

Is THAT A Banana in Yer Pants?

What I'm about to tell you just COMPLETELY confirms my perspective on Most Gay men, and I find it SAD and extremely pathetic; it's MORE common than not! Trust Me, I'm Gay! I know!

So, I'm off to Starbucks (as usual) 3 days ago when I have another BRIGHT idea; I put a rolled up washcloth in my pants before heading out! Why? Curiosity about Men! First off, there is NADA wrong with my cock size - You'll have to Trust me on that; I am NOT posting a pic! I just wanted to see the reaction of some folks, Gay Men, that frequent SB's between the hours that I go there, that usually give me "no mind", as they say. So, I'm off to TEST these folks! Guess what happens? Come one! Guess! Yea! Yer Right! In the 2 hours I was there, 2 Fags , that never pay attention to me MUCH (it's my HARD look, I think; I scare them - Pussies) went for the bait ( no pun intended). Not only was this one guy groping him self at me so I'd be clear that he was interested in suckin my fat dick, but the 2nd one? Well, he actually came up to me, offering to "SUCK IT" in the Starbucks bathroom! Needless to say, I let the sick, OBJECTIFYING fag go hungry. It's so SAD and PATHETIC how often this happens in the Gay community. It's just like being just a lil' over-weight, then losing the lil' belly and ALL of a sudden the same fags that turned and mock you wanna fuck you silly! No Thankx!

My Motto Remains: "IF I don't KNOW you and LIKE you, I ain't fuckin YOU"...with my dick or a banana!

Hey! Don't judge; I was bored!

DON'T Fuck (with) Pussy!

THIS IS WHY IT IS NOT A GOOD IDEA TO FUCK PUSSY!!

The 3 Rules for Crystal Meth Use

This a a funny BUT sad true story.......
I was telling a buddy last nite this........
About 10 years ago, I took another Tweaker home ( the ONLY one I ever took to any place I lived, for good reason---read on....) to PNP (Party and Play) with. After "playing" a while, I realized we were outta "gatorade" (every tweakers favorite cocktail), so I got in the car, went down the mountain, got some liquids, walk in my house, only to see the "tweaker" on his hands and knees ( screw driver in hand) taking apart my 3 day old , nearly 8000$ plasma TV a friend just bought me. Well, I didn't KILL him, altho I wanted to. I had my roommate take him back into SF; IF I would have I probably would have thrown him over the Golden Gate. Afterwards, I came up with the following rules for my crystal Meth use........

Rule #1: NO over head-lighting; I LOOK BAD!

Rule #2: If I say you are talking to much (most tweakers never get to the FUCKIN cuz they are WAY to busy yabbin'), You probably are,so SHUT UP and Fuck!

Rule #3: (This is the kicker ! ) Don't Touch anything electronic, especially if it is MINE!

Like I said, FUNNY but SAD. As long as I remain "clean", I don't ever have to in place these rules. PROBLEM SOLVED!

Saving My Life!

You know, somedays I HATE having to take ALL the damned medicines I have to take! But, considering that 5500 Africans die everyday of AIDS with NO access to the Meds I have , I'm SO GRATEFUL....grateful for even a CHANCE to live and live a free Life- one that I choose. I wish there was more that I could do to help the folks around the world who have no ACCESS. I do whatever I can, and that makes me PART OF A SOLUTION, * NOT PART OF THE PROBLEM! I'm so grateful that I am WHO I AM; a Man with a loving, caring, compassionate heart!

God Bless. I 'know' I AM!

Humility.......

This is what HUMILITY looks like to me

Click on pics to enlarge anywhere within my Blog!

Tattooing: A Work in Progress

Yea, so it's becoming another* addiction! Oh, F**kin' Well. Better a needle 'jabbin' my arm than being stuck 'in' my arm - if ya know what I mean! Not the greatest pic; I was being impatient (what's new? - Ha!)...but ya get t the idea. This all started off with one little one. Doesn't ANY addiction start off with ONE "LITTLE" anything? "LITTLE" anything is never a part of my vocab! NO Smart cracks, guyz!!!

Another Bright Idea (Shut Up!) :Don't Try THIS at Home

Altho I LOVE my tattoos, I wouldn't recommend getting one anywhere near, on or around yer wrist! I kinda sounded like Linda Blair last nite in the Exorcist! But, instead of repeating "Fuck Me, Jesus!', like poor lil' Linda did, I kept saying ( as the Artist was cutting into my skin), "Yer a Mother Fucker and I will NEVER cut my wrist - NEVER!"

Talk about friggin' PAIN! Jeeeeezus H Christ! Next time I have this bright idea, I'll be saying, "Pass the Dalluidid!" Hey, PAIN IS OPTIONAL! He, the Artist, just laughin' & gigglin' said, " You asked for it!"
And I did "ASK FOR IT"!
OUCH!

Note: My Tattoo guy ( "BUD" ) is here in LA. If you are NEED of some work, leave me a "Comment" to that effect and I WILL hook you up with him. BTW, he is also a GREAT guy!

"Tear You Apart' by She Wants Revenge

Was having ( YET ) another tattoo added to my body last nite when my Artist shoved this CD in the player: The Group? SHE WANTS REVENGE. The song:" I want to fuckin' "Tear you Apart". It Rocks! Very much in the Genre of Sisters of Mercy, The Cure, Bauhaus...only fresh, new , modern. The lead singer ( haven't learned his name yet) has an incredibly SEXY voice, I think. All he'd have to do is sing and I'd ______!!!!
Enjoy:http://youtube.com/watch?v=ukLMPfQSGa4&mode=related&search=
Video Clip features beginning footage from the film, "SIN CITY"! (Gotta love Mickey Rourke; he's such a twisted fuck! )

SEX. SEX. RAW PURE WILD "PASSIONATE" SEX. SEXY. SEXY!!!!!!

"Passion"!!! Remember When??? I can barely remember; I think, most people "DO IT" and never took GREAT SEX 101...... MAYBE I'll run into someone someday that would be willing to explore this again! PASSION THAT IS!!

Male Models Should Be SEEN and NOT Heard !!

Live in LA for 6 years like me (where all the fags THINK they are a Model; Model of WHAT is really the queston) and YOU WILL AGREE!

"Shut the **** Up and JUST look pretty!"

Stalkin' at Starbucks: What a MIstake in Judgement

So....here I am one day last week sippin' my cup of "speed" at Starfuckers and "GOD" walks in, stares me down, big smile, lotsa 'bedroom' (come fuck me) eye contact, then walks out the door. I sit and wonder (with my big mouth) WHY I didn't get my fine lil' ass up and go talk to him. So, my solution? STALK HIM via hangin at SB's a lot. So I did. Asked each employee if he came in often, whether or not they knew his name, even offered one employee who knew WHO I was yabbin' about $50 bucks if he wud ring me on my cell should "GOD" (resembling a VERY SEXY Dave Navarro-Esque .. but shaved head, same EYE-LASHES) came in while I wasn't there. 5 mins. later, he walks in. Same sit n stare game that he was playin the day b4, blah, blah,blah. I said to myself, "FUCK THE FAGGOT GAME PLAYIN' and got up went outside, told him I thought he was Ssssssmokin HOT (beware of pretty people on the outside; sometimes that's ALL they have), talked with him and played with his 2 wonderful dogs (JUST cuz' a cute dude has dogs ALSO does NOT mean anything....keep reading), he told me to call him asap, gave me his number, shook my hand (FIRMLY) and leaned into me giving me a kiss that almost made me wet myself. Okay! Okay! So 5 mins. later I was pickin' out china patterns and drapes in my head! F**k YOU! You wudda , too! Trust me!

Okay. So now to get to the good shit......

We meet for B'fast yesterday at Eat Well on Sunset Blvd. The entire conversation is about him, his Benz ( I can see what car you drive Fucker; it's a CAR not ** a Benz), his 2 dogs (which was the ONLY part of the conversation that wasn't about WHO HE THINKS HE IS), etc, etc. Didn't ONCE in nearly an hour and a half ask me one thing about me. Can you say "Self-friggin'-Absorbed! How typical faggot LA. It's funny how he went from GOD status to "I wouldn't fuck you with yer dogs dick" in less than 10 mins. The remaining hour was a fuckin BORING chore! If there are two things ( there are MANY others LOL) I cannot stand it's Pretentious and TYPICAL people, which I find most Gay men to be. This is why I am single. It's presently BY CHOICE!

Here's the "kicker": I get up with him , walk down Sunset to his car, he sez" Talk to you later", and I said"NO, actually you won't" and continued to walk. This actually isn't so much about me being single and wantin' to love on someone again b4 I friggin' die, it's about the obvious: He is single cuz he is an ASSHOLE! I think that about covers it. Don't you!?

Well, at least I put myself out there. One last word regarding this encounter or any other future encounter like it: NEXT!!!!!

STEROIDS & PARTYING = DEATH

A new buddy of mine sent me the following link. Adult Porn Actor Brett Mycles (*supposedly str8, except "Gay 4 Pay" in Adult Films) dies of heart failure in his sleep;excessive steroid use and "partying" may have been an attributing cause, something I personally have A LOT of experience with. And it AIN'T A GOOD thing. (God, I sound like Martha Stewart). It's really a sad story; he was only 29!!!! Pay attention people!! Yet, I know, with my experience, most people wont listen. I didn't for years and it nearly (several times) cost me my life!

R.I.P., Bro! http://www.towleroad.com/2007/03/adult_film_acto.html

And GOD Created MAN.....

After seeing this pic, what else is there to say?

Nada! That's what!

Well, I do have to say this: "IF I had this Man's face, I would be a WHORE! Woof! Serious, Woof!"

For an even better view of him, double click on the pic.....

The Puppy Within....

A buddy of mine and I were discussing my disappoinment in people and he emailed me back this:

For you in particular, I think you can might practice seeing other humans and yourself with the lenses with which you perceive dogs. The only misbehaving, mean or "bad" dogs are ones that have been mistreated, mistrained or abused, and you have the capacity to see that--have you ever been truly angry at a dog, even a pain-in-the-ass one?
If only humans could overcome their damage as amazingly as dogs can. But we act out our pain till kingdom come. So when you see that, remember the puppy within-everybody.

I emailed him back this morning telling him, "The only problem with this is that I LOVE dogs and don't usually care for most people."
Even with that said, I understand that most people are NOT spiritually developed; Yet I find it (some people's FUCKED UP behaviour) REALLY SAD and rather tragic.

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Steven Tyler: The Best Scream in Rock n Roll...Ever

Aerosmith! Enuf Sed! Steven Tyler is a musical genius. And since I met him once, I can tell you that he would tell you the same thing. Ego! But that's okay....They Rock, so Fuck It! Let'em have a lil' Ego.

The attached video clip link is : "I don't want to miss a Thing.". Even tho it was played more 5 years ago at weddings around the world than any other song EVER, it makes me believe that it's possible to fall IN-LOVE again, hopefully, one day. Think the lyrics describe how LOVE should be: loving, kind, caring, nurturing, something to cherish. It kinda opens my Heart to , at least, the possibility....

Click here:http://youtube.com/watch?v=6q-mXusOEd8

Really a great video. And, Mr.Tyler is amazing' as always.

Have an Amazing Day.

For Your Soul

I was having a very difficult time several months back,

in September actually, and my dear friend

"Mark" (San Francisco) hooked me to this video link. It re-fueled my soul, made me realize how much I have to live for and how much I mean to my friends. Something else I'm entering where it gives HOPE , where there is little or none at all. God Bless.....Listen ( and, probably, Cry; I did ), then give a HUG to someone you care about......it might make the difference in their day!

Click on this link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PpzkHhgcZG4

WHO I AM........

Who I Am I am not my hair, my eyes, my nose or my mouth.

I am not my skin or the shape of any of my body parts.

I am not the IQ of my brain.I am not the sound of my voice or the volume of my laughter.

I am not my strengths or any of my weaknesses.

I am not the level of my skills.

The temple of my physical makeup is a culmination of genetics.It reveals nothing about the person who resides within.I take no credit or point no blame for the way I look.My temple is perfect, as is.

This body is not who I am.It is an exquisitely perfect dwelling for my soul

.Everything about it is exactly as it should be.No other, anywhere, ever, could serve my soul as well.

I am not anything you can see with your eyes or touch with your hands. Should you judge me by that criteria, you will never know me.I am not a dumping ground for bias that's based on a man-made standard, and I do not accept the prejudice it creates.

I am a union of body, mind and spirit, a trio, not a solo.To know me, is to know yourself.

Those who hear the still small voice in their soul, recognize the song in mine. They do not stop at the front door and judge me by the dwelling in which I reside.

With a humble sense of honor, they knock upon the door and ask to come in.

The judgment of others does not change who I am.Quite the opposite is true. It reveals who they are.

Those who deem me unworthy at a glance and pass me on by,have my blessing to keep walking, for they have a long way to go. They have not reached the point in their journey where they are able to see and appreciate me for who I am.

I expect no more. I will accept no less.

For Me: The Biggest Dog Lover in the World!

Here are just three of the great, SSSSSSWEET faces that I came across today on my walk down Sunset Boulevard, here in Silverlake. Hope you enjoy them as much as I did.....

BTW, this poor ol' girl (French Bull Mastiff, age 8, abused and left for dead, rescued by her present owner) really is in need of some Botox, aye? Well, she's in LA; she's in the right place (said sarcastically).

An Email to a Dear Ol' Friend - And I Cry

Before I wrote the below email, I go
ogled my friends name and called the number; her husband told me she had a stroke that left her nearly completely unable to talk 4 years previous. After trying my best to talk to and understand her, I asked her to give the phone back to her hubby so I could communicate better thru emails with her. When we let time pass between friends SHIT HAPPENS- and sometimes it's really shitty.

Dear Norm and My Sweet Deborah

I know, I know. Outta no where, I call. It's kinda hard to explain; as I've been getting older ( not wiser) I've been thinking over my Life and wanting to connect/ re-connect with those people who made a huge difference in my life. Deborah? YOU ARE one of those people! Maybe our relationship back twenty-some years ago wasn't that long lived (barely 3 years), but YOU ARE one of the dearest kindest people I ever met in my life. I remember trying to write a paper and you referred it as "Purple Prose"! LOL Still quite haven't figured out what that means! hahahahaha. Or, at Xmas one year, me giving you the book, "A lazy man's guide to enlightenment"; all the dinners I had you, Eric and Jayne over for. I MISS those days! Me, my buddies and a great meal made with love for my friends! What a gift. It was NEVER my intention to fall into being an ADDICT, destroying everything and everyone in my path. I've always been a GOOD man, yet my addiction clouded that fact in an EXTREME way. So I disappeared from every one's life, hoping one day to get a grip on my addiction so I could resurface and join my friends and the living again. I HAD NO IDEA it would be this many years later- if AT ALL! It's been a long, lonely and difficult road, let's just put it that way. It's been nothing glamorous, I can assure you. Just many , many years back to back of digging a hole so deep I never thought I could get out of it alive.
I want to apologize for any behaviour of mine, back then, that hurt you or caused you pain---and I KNOW I did. It wasn't ME , it was the DRUGS! But, I think you, who knows my heart , knows that!
I'm so sorry I've missed so much. I hope we can stay in touch a bit, and maybe one day see each other again....
I don't know whether or not you are online at the house, but I'm including a link to my Blog, which I just started in November 2006. It's nothing to scream about, but it's usually very spiritual and gives some hope where there is none or very little- something I KNOW a lot about. I'm also attaching a few pics, so you can see what I look like now.....
Get back to me when you can..
You two PLEASE take care; I'll do the same

Much Love, Denny

Change the World:Helping Others, What a Concept

Wow! I'm not alone after all......

I met someone Online who is a Youth Counselor/ School Psychologist. He's Gay, Latin, Very Attractive, loves dogs and cares more about making a difference helping our troubled youth than his hair!! Imagine THAT! In the LA area no less. I really thought I was alone in that: Helping others, being of Service to a World on the friggin' fringe. I feel so much more hopeful after the conversation; I hope I didn't talk his head off. LOL

During the conversation, talking about drugs, recovery, troubled youth, his work with them, he said, " You know, we are ALL in this together!" I wanted to say, "MARRY ME"., but I didn't; I didn't want to seem too forward! LOL

I sent him an email afterwards thanking him for the conversation and for the work he does making a DIFFERENCE..... Rather than focusing (sometimes, not always; I'm too busy helping someone who needs help) on the people who don't care, I need to refocus and realize that, although only a few, there are people like ME who are out to make a difference, to make a change for the better in this World! Thankx , Again "________". ( Name kept Anonymous)

Remain Blessed.

Note: As I told "______" last nite, "IF YOU ARE NOT * PART OF THE SOLUTION, THEN YOU ARE PART OF THE PROBLEM". It's really rather simple......