An Email to a Dear Ol' Friend - And I Cry

Before I wrote the below email, I go
ogled my friends name and called the number; her husband told me she had a stroke that left her nearly completely unable to talk 4 years previous. After trying my best to talk to and understand her, I asked her to give the phone back to her hubby so I could communicate better thru emails with her. When we let time pass between friends SHIT HAPPENS- and sometimes it's really shitty.

Dear Norm and My Sweet Deborah

I know, I know. Outta no where, I call. It's kinda hard to explain; as I've been getting older ( not wiser) I've been thinking over my Life and wanting to connect/ re-connect with those people who made a huge difference in my life. Deborah? YOU ARE one of those people! Maybe our relationship back twenty-some years ago wasn't that long lived (barely 3 years), but YOU ARE one of the dearest kindest people I ever met in my life. I remember trying to write a paper and you referred it as "Purple Prose"! LOL Still quite haven't figured out what that means! hahahahaha. Or, at Xmas one year, me giving you the book, "A lazy man's guide to enlightenment"; all the dinners I had you, Eric and Jayne over for. I MISS those days! Me, my buddies and a great meal made with love for my friends! What a gift. It was NEVER my intention to fall into being an ADDICT, destroying everything and everyone in my path. I've always been a GOOD man, yet my addiction clouded that fact in an EXTREME way. So I disappeared from every one's life, hoping one day to get a grip on my addiction so I could resurface and join my friends and the living again. I HAD NO IDEA it would be this many years later- if AT ALL! It's been a long, lonely and difficult road, let's just put it that way. It's been nothing glamorous, I can assure you. Just many , many years back to back of digging a hole so deep I never thought I could get out of it alive.
I want to apologize for any behaviour of mine, back then, that hurt you or caused you pain---and I KNOW I did. It wasn't ME , it was the DRUGS! But, I think you, who knows my heart , knows that!
I'm so sorry I've missed so much. I hope we can stay in touch a bit, and maybe one day see each other again....
I don't know whether or not you are online at the house, but I'm including a link to my Blog, which I just started in November 2006. It's nothing to scream about, but it's usually very spiritual and gives some hope where there is none or very little- something I KNOW a lot about. I'm also attaching a few pics, so you can see what I look like now.....
Get back to me when you can..
You two PLEASE take care; I'll do the same

Much Love, Denny